Thursday, July 29, 2010

Inspiration

Man, I can't believe it's only been a week since my doctor's appointment. It feels like an eternity already.

There's one thought that I keep going back to over and over again.  In fact, I wrote about it in my journal and I've shared it with Tony and numerous friends this week.  I'm constantly amazed at the ability of the human body to withstand such a wide array of emotions.  As I headed to my OB's office last week I was on cloud nine, and within seconds I was destroyed and in so much unexplainable pain.  I even told Tony last week I didn't know how my body and my mind could withstand such awful feelings.

I know that God will never take us where the grace of God cannot protect us.  I've heard that all my life, and I'm so thankful for friends and family who've been there to constantly remind me of this simple little fact over the past week.  I've been able to rest in my faith and trust in God's will for our life and our baby's life this week.  He's given me the hope and the peace that I needed over the past week, and that's how I've managed to cope during this difficult time.

I've found such hope in what some may feel are silly things... like other people's dreams and listening to music.

As I was driving home on Tuesday this song came on the radio, and I felt that it was played just for me.  Next Wednesday will not be easy as I sit in the waiting room at Texas Children's Hospital waiting for the results and hearing what the doctors have to say.  I just pray that I can continue to trust in God's will for our lives and make this my testimony no matter what the news may be.

Waiting Room by Jonny Diaz

Here in this waiting room
Yearning for You to say go
And thought I'm convinced that a yes would be best
This time You're telling me no.

It's not that I don't have an answer
It's just not the one that I'd like
But through this time Lord I must keep in mind
You're always wiser than I.

'Cause You have a much better purpose
And You have a far greater plan
And You have a bigger perspective
'Cause You hold this world in Your hands.

The things that I seek are from You
Like the strong healing touch of Your hand
But when You say no, help me to trust
Even though there's a reason I can't understand.

'Cause You have a much better purpose
And You have a far greater plan
And You have a bigger perspective
'Cause You hold this world in Your hands.

When that miracle comes 'cause Your answer is yes
I will praise You for all of my days
But when Your wisdom declares that a no is what's best
I will praise You just the same.

'Cause You have a much better purpose
And You have a far greater plan
And You have a bigger perspective
'Cause You hold this world in Your hands.



We can never thank you all enough for the prayers, the support, the food, the flowers, the phone calls, the cards, the list could go on and on and on. Hope this little guy realizes how much he is loved and cared for already.  


Saturday, July 24, 2010

Prayer request


On Thursday we did find out that our baby is indeed a boy (but I already knew that... mother's intuition I guess), but the doctors also found that something is not right with our baby's heart.

We do not know the severity of his heart condition at this point, but it appears that the chambers on the right side of his heart are small if even developing at all.  The doctors are preparing us for the worst.  I guess that's their job right?  The worst being that I will never be able to hold my baby boy.  I'll never be able to cheer for him in the stands at his t-ball games. I'll never be able to see him off on his first day of school.

We, of course, are trying very hard to remain faithful in prayer and trust in God's will for us and for our baby boy.  We remain hopeful for good news and pray that this heart condition is just a bump in the road and can be easily fixed.  I have to remain hopeful for my baby.

We will know more in about 10-14 days when my amniocentesis results are back and we meet with the pediatric cardiologist at Texas Children's Hosptial.  At this point it doesn't look good, but we must continue to wait, hope, and pray.  We could use any good thoughts you can send our way and greatly appreciate any prayers you can send up for our baby boy. 

I'm devastated.  I'm shattered and unsure how the pieces can be put back together again.  Tony's hurting and crushed.  Our families are struggling.

We only told family and close friends initially.  The love and support we have received already has truly been a blessing to us and in fact has been the only point of comfort we've had thus far.  Thanks for the phone calls, the flowers, the e-mails, the messages, and most of all for the prayers.  Please, please, please keep the prayers coming.

I'm not sure when I'll feel up to blogging again, but thanks in advance for lifting us up in prayer during the coming weeks to months.  

For you created my inmost being; 
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, 
I know that full well. 
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be. 
Psalms 139: 13-16

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will direct your path.
Proverbs 3:5-6


Love,                                           
Tiffanie & Tony                                


image: www.prettybeautiful.co.uk

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Updates

Summer's been busy. I do love summer, but I'm ready for a break. I'm ready for cooler weather and a little of this...
Stockings and cozy fires
Snow
yeah, right!
ok, I'll settle for a high temp of 70.
I've been a bit obsessed with "Lois," the rare corpse flower that's about to bloom at the Houston Museum of Natural Science. Supposedly she's to smell like a dead body when she blooms. I haven't been to the museum to see the flower simply because I'm fearful my sensitive sense of smell will result in an episode of gagging. I've been checking the webcam morning, noon, and night though. Here's Lois if you want to check her out. Supposedly she will bloom in next 12-24 hours, but I think I heard that last week too.

Ummm, I'm fairly certain I have "pregnancy brain." How do I know you ask? Well, last week I left my car running in the parking garage while I was at work. Five hours and one-half tank of gas later, I came home and surrendered until this baby is here for the rest of the day. Ok, Baby V.... you win. You happy?

On a final note, it's been exactly one year since my grandmother's (better known as Mawmaw) stroke.  It's been a hard year for everyone to say the least, but she's a trooper. Thanks for all the prayers and thoughts over the past year, and please keep them coming. I thank God everyday that's she still here with us. I love you Mawmaw!
My wedding
Mawmaw (in red) sharing a conversation with Tony's grandmother.
Hands down the best grandmother ever.
And soon to be great grandmother. 



Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Da Bump: 14 weeks

14 weeks
Two patients pointed out my bump today while asking if I was pregnant. Must mean I'm officially "showing." Think they would've been embarrassed if I would have said no?  I think I may try that on someone.  Is that cruel?

Old bump pics:
11 weeks



Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Be my guest.

I've never really posted about my guest bath for a number of reasons.
1) I wasn't a big fan of the bathroom, but as you can see from the before pictures it has come a long way in the past nine months. By the way, wallpaper removal = no fun. I will have to admit that the tile work has grown on me.
2) It has taken 9 months for me to find the right decor for this space. Just a couple of weeks ago it dawned on me to hang some of my black and white photographs in there. So I did. And I like it.
3)There's no natural light so it's hard to take a quality picture in there, but I tried and here it is.

Before
After
There's a vanity area that leads into this part of the bath with ceiling to floor cabinets (love the storage) and another sink. I will post that area once the sconces are hung and it is a bit more tastefully decorated.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Dear Aunt Lauren,

Thanks for my new stuff. My room is already full of fun things from you and Hunter, and my mom needs to buy baby hangers to hang all the new clothes you bought me in my closet. I really like the Kissy Kissy outfit, and mom says she's going to keep me in it as much as possible because it's sooo soft. Mom also really likes that you framed her announcement.

Love,
Baby V




Saturday, July 10, 2010

The Wonderbra

I've jumped on the wonderbar bandwagon. You bloggers and your spectacular reviews had me thinking about the wonderbar day and night. Once I found out that Kulh-Linscomb sold them, I went to snatch one up.

No, the title is not a typo.  I got a strange look when I walked in the store and asked for the wonderbra instead of the wonderbar.  Oops.  You see where my brain is these days. They don't make Wonderbras large enough for these pregnant boobs. Ugh!

Ok, back to the subject at hand...

It's expensive for something the size of my thumb, but supposedly this little bar is supposed to last a couple of months.  What got me is that it's an all in one--- cleaner, exfoliation, moisturizer, toner ---, it balances the pH of the skin, and the website vows that I will no longer need any type of foundation after a month of use.

I will say that I went through about a week of the so called "healing crisis," but things have been much better this week and I think my pores look smaller.  My skin is less oily which feels exceptionally good in this Houston weather with mucho humidity.


Stay tuned for a more extensive review in another couple of weeks, but so far so good.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

We celebrated Independence Day in New Braunfels with good friends and one of the sweetest and most adorable babies ever.  Thanks for letting me for hijack your baby all weekend, Erin and Collin!  I'm in serious withdrawals, and can hardly wait for our little one to be here already.

Tony practicing.
Tony and Mac
Mac is a natural with babies,
and ladies, he's single!

Sweet Allie
Erin and Allie

Katherine, Erin, and Allie

I love Allie!
Allie and her mom dancing at the Gristmill. 
The pregnant lady and the baby with a non-alcoholic beer. 

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Our first home

We closed, as in sold, our first home exactly one year ago next week. It was bittersweet. I loved that place. I knew we were moving onto bigger and better things, but I still couldn't fight back the tears as I packed the boxes. Let's just say that lots of wine was consumed during the packing process.

Don't get me wrong I love our more traditional and family-friendly house we own now, but it's been a year and I'm still thinking about our first place quite a bit.

Our old place...






I hope the new owners love it like we did.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Sweet tooth

Yep, I've had one recently.  


Happy 4th.  We are headed away to New Braunfels for the long holiday weekend.  


Speaking of desserts, I had my very first Sprinkles cupcake today. 

Chocolate Marshmallow
Dear drug rep that hit up Sprinkles at 9 a.m. today just so you could bring me a cupcake without standing in line, I love you and thanks.  What's the name of your drug again?